I Don't Know

from by Kylan Hillman

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Everything that woman says, god I know that it's coming
After all the time I've spent, this feeling I'm facing leaves me paralyzed until the well runs dry

I don't know who you are
ya better lose that smile and drive as far as you know you can
Go run off with them
I hope you have a happy life and a long-term plan to stay straight

It's just a passing phase
But it's not, cause I'm scared
I'm a mess without you and totally unprepared to stay the course
It's a lie
It's a joke
Nothing that I feel makes sense to me anymore
I don't know what to do
Wish I was still there with you

All alone, I sit and drone with the art that escapes me
It shines a light into my eyes, then leaves and betrays me
Some heaven from above
All that I need is love

I don't know what I want
It seems that nothing makes me happy cause I've no attention span
I'm still learning to trust the people in my life, the powers that give me all of my strength

Wish I could celebrate, but I can't cause I'm chained
I'm a criminal and clinically insane to your blank eyes
It's a lie
It's a joke
Everyone around me's waiting for me to choke on my own substance, my personalized penance

Locked in my room, suffocating fumes
If someone said, "you'd rather be dead?", I'd have to let you down

But I can't
I'm afraid
I can't leave this all and I've always been amazed by what you've done
Generalize, compromise
No matter how you slice it I can't break from the ties of who I am
It's time to be a man


from Demo 2 (The Sequel), released August 21, 2015



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Kylan Hillman is a singer-songwriter from Hopewell New Jersey. Kylan Hillman fuses a wide range of influences, from Neutral Milk Hotel to Passion Pit and even Cloud Nothings, with passion and powerful songwriting creating infectious tunes that won't leave the listeners head for days. ... more

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